I don't see the point of celebrating.

However this year, i have promise myself one thing.

Aisyah will change.

I will not be someone's punching bag.

I will not allow you to treat me like trash.

I will not tolerate nonsense in my life.

I will always cherish everything i have.

I will not spend my money aimlessly.

I will be more outgoing, sociable, brave.

I will make sure i do not regret things.

I am going after him.

I will. I am.

I end my 2011 in my room. Thinking about my life. What have i achieved. What have i not achieve. What i should have done. What was stopping me. Why didn't i chase after my dream.

So i ended up crying, in my room, all by myself. I guess the bottled up emotions in me erupted and i cried while watching Hilary Duff's video Someone's watching over me.

I need to grow up. I need to do something for my future. I can't aimlessly lead my life again.

I need to step up and do something for my future.

I will go after you. I will make sure i won't regret my life again.

2012.. Go Go Go..