I never knew it could be so painful that tears would form.

I can literally feel my heart breaking into pieces at one point.

Is this part of growing up? Is this how love suppose to feel like? But why is it so painful and stressful to me? Why? Why me? Why?

.sigh.

He... is quitting his job. He has been working for at least a month and 2 weeks. He gave his notice 2 days ago. So tomorrow, the 30th of December 2011, he will be his very last day.

I am confused.

I am upset.

I am disappointed.

Why do u have to quit so suddenly? Why? Why is it when i started to like you and have real feelings for someone real, that you have to leave? Why? What exactly is the reason behind your decision? Do you hate that the uncles kept disturbing you with me?

I know you are not that petty, right? YES, I have that much faith in you.

So what is the main reason that made you decide on quitting?

Were u unhappy working at EGS? Is that it?

I don't know what to think, how to feel, how to react to all of these.

It has been 2 weeks exactly since i last saw you. Do you know that?

( 1 week and 6 days to be exact)

Oh Allah, why is it so hard? Why is love like this? Why do i have strong feelings for someone who does not even like? me or wants to see me? or concerns about me?

What is the problem that i need to fix?

Can you please help and guide me?

I need nothing more than your guidance and a chance to talk to him, a last chance. Please.

Uncle said to me, " You are late. See he's quitting already"

I am sad too, can't you see? Can u see how miserable i look at work? Did u realise i never smile or laugh the past 2 days? Did you notice? Do you?

I miss him.. i really do. I can feel his presence, quite strong. But didn't i see him.

Why? i can't remember how exactly he looks like. That shows how little i've met him throughout the period he's working at EGS.

So is it really a love story? Or just some crush that will fade away?

I need answers. I need to know some things. I need closure. I need it.

If i don't get this, i don't think i will ever be able to get my mind straighten out.

The sad story about a girl who is trying to grow up in harsh cruel world.