~~Growing up~~

its christmas eve in Singapore

He is a guy at work

I am currently working at Jurong Island, Shell Petrochemical Industry

It is a nice place to be

The staffs are nice and care for me a lot

I am forever grateful and thankful for all the concerns they have for me

I have no complain whatsoever

He was just employed by the company

He.. is a nice guy? *sigh*

I am not so sure myself

Like i said, i barely know him

My first impression of him was not so good

Didn't like him because he seems unfriendly

but..

When i saw him for the 3rd time..

And when he called my name "Sya"

My heart beat so fast i scare myself

I was thinking ' why am i like this?'

What are these feelings?

I haven't feel this way in so long, ever since i gave up on e8726

Thoughts like ' do i like him? does he think im not nice? is he okay? why does he look a me this way? why am i thinking about him all the time? Do i really like this person?'

It has been 8 days since i've come to like this stranger?

So it is really true genuine feelings of liking a person?

I know it is normal for a girl, my age, to like some guy, somehow

I am already 20 years old

My friends are attached, engaged, soon to be married

And yet here I am, still googoo gaga over Korean idols

For almost 7 years already, which is not so good

Religious wise, Psychological wise, Emotional wise

I have never been attached my whole life

I would like to know how it feels like liking someone

Someone who cares for me

Someone who would sms me and ask me how my day is

Someone who would smile when he sees me walking

Someone who has my back

Just someone

So do i like this guy? Or do i like a presence of a guy?

Which he seems to fit in.

So do i like him because he fits in this empty space in my life

Do i just want someone to occupy it and it does not mean i truly like him

SO what is the final conclusion..

DO i like this guy? Or do i want someone to occupy this empty space in my heart?

Which one is correct?

I can't stop thinking about him

Everyday at work I'll be wondering where he is or what is he doing

Is he alright after 2 days MC?

Is it genuine worry or am i thinking too much?

Dear Mr.u-know-who

U definitely won't be reading this,

but if u do, can u tell me if you might like me?

can u please tell me if i like u?

Can u solve this problem for me?

An amateur needs your help, desperately i think i really like you. But seems like you do not like me at all. Seems like you do not make any effort to see me.

Am i really not your type?

Can u please come to me and smile for once?

Make this heart of mine come to an ease after 8 days.

Because i think...

i really do like you now.

Love,

Sya...