The Thursdays
I was scared out of my wits when it was raining the other with lighting and thunderstorm. >< It gets worst. I got anxiety attack. I cant seem to calm myself down despite forcing myself to think of happy events. I was so scared of the lightning and thunder that i just wanna run home. I cant think of anything but hiding in my bed. Even when i reached a sheltered area, my anxiety did not subside. My mind was blank and all i wanted was my meds. I was sick that day, so with the lightning and thunder, It. just. got. worst. ><
When the car accident that happened 4 years ago, in 2007. (I'm talking about myself.)
It was raining heavily. I cannot remember anything prior, during and post of the accident.
All the stories i knew/ heard, are from my family members and police officers.
They said it was raining so heavily that day. So maybe because of that i have this horrible fear to lightnings and thunderstorms.
It was a tough time for me 4 years ago, and it is till now.
The injuries that one perceived from a car accident, will hurt even more years to come.
The way u think, ur memory, ur fears, ur physical emotional and psychological strength will be so mess up that sometimes u think u r insane. And sometimes you might even think of suicide.
I experienced all these and i truly know how it feels like.
It has been 4 years, yet everyone is judging me that i cant let go of the incident.
If you were in my shoe, would u? How?
If u went through the same ordeal i did, what would you do?
When will you stop judging the way i think and feels?
Is it if u did went through the same thing i did, and u judge me, okay i wont wronged you.
But if u didnt, and u r judging me, take a look in the mirror. For i despise your attitude.
The story of a girl...5:25 AM