im soo tired..cant stand it anymore..im tired of studying..haha..well chemical engineering is not my fav..argh..i dont noe wat to do..exams coming...not orepared like DUH!.im considering if i shud differ course..i really need my motivator..too bad he's gone..

i kept listening to Super Junior miracle..it said that "life could get better"..it doesnt seem so to me..how come?.i just cant seem to see any light in my life.people may see me as a cheerful but deep inside im lonely and cold.sometimes i just cant bear this on my own.i feel so alone in this cold world.alone and lonely.

the relaxing thing i had to do to calm me doen doesnt seem to work.she said it wud work but it doenst. i can only do if front of her but not by myself.i dunno wat to do with my life.things are getting more and more complicated..

u noe wat i dont want to talk about tis anymore..OK.my sister called last Thursday..she went to Planet Hollywood in NYC n u noe wat.she met Jonas Brothers!!!!OMG Jonas Brothers! i want to meet them but she did..oh i soo ENVY her...so i called my best fren and u noe wat she screamed just like me!!haha we both LOVE the Jonas Brothers...ah i so envy my sister..