A new year.. 2012
I don't see the point of celebrating.
However this year, i have promise myself one thing.
Aisyah will change.
I will not be someone's punching bag.
I will not allow you to treat me like trash.
I will not tolerate nonsense in my life.
I will always cherish everything i have.
I will not spend my money aimlessly.
I will be more outgoing, sociable, brave.
I will make sure i do not regret things.
I am going after him.
I will. I am.
I end my 2011 in my room. Thinking about my life. What have i achieved. What have i not achieve. What i should have done. What was stopping me. Why didn't i chase after my dream.
So i ended up crying, in my room, all by myself. I guess the bottled up emotions in me erupted and i cried while watching Hilary Duff's video Someone's watching over me.
I need to grow up. I need to do something for my future. I can't aimlessly lead my life again.
I need to step up and do something for my future.
I will go after you. I will make sure i won't regret my life again.
2012.. Go Go Go..
The story of a girl...7:41 AM
Love hurts
Without a word... Without a glance...
He really left...
We couldn't meet in EGS.. but...
Maybe we might meet outside...
One day...
One fine day...
Our fate with each other has yet to end..
I believe in FATE and DESTINY...
And so i believe i will meet you again and i will be able to express my feelings for you.
Whether you reject it, or accept it. It does not matter.
What matters is.. what i am able to sacrifice and change. Just for you.
The story of a girl...5:32 AM
I never knew loving someone can be so painful
This young girl is truly really in love. Can i say love? When i barely know the person.
Can i use the word LOVE in this situation.
I never knew it could be so painful that tears would form.
I can literally feel my heart breaking into pieces at one point.
Is this part of growing up? Is this how love suppose to feel like? But why is it so painful and stressful to me? Why? Why me? Why?
.sigh.
He... is quitting his job. He has been working for at least a month and 2 weeks. He gave his notice 2 days ago. So tomorrow, the 30th of December 2011, he will be his very last day.
I am confused.
I am upset.
I am disappointed.
Why do u have to quit so suddenly? Why? Why is it when i started to like you and have real feelings for someone real, that you have to leave? Why? What exactly is the reason behind your decision? Do you hate that the uncles kept disturbing you with me?
I know you are not that petty, right? YES, I have that much faith in you.
So what is the main reason that made you decide on quitting?
Were u unhappy working at EGS? Is that it?
I don't know what to think, how to feel, how to react to all of these.
It has been 2 weeks exactly since i last saw you. Do you know that?
( 1 week and 6 days to be exact)
Oh Allah, why is it so hard? Why is love like this? Why do i have strong feelings for someone who does not even like? me or wants to see me? or concerns about me?
What is the problem that i need to fix?
Can you please help and guide me?
I need nothing more than your guidance and a chance to talk to him, a last chance. Please.
Uncle said to me, " You are late. See he's quitting already"
I am sad too, can't you see? Can u see how miserable i look at work? Did u realise i never smile or laugh the past 2 days? Did you notice? Do you?
I miss him.. i really do. I can feel his presence, quite strong. But didn't i see him.
Why? i can't remember how exactly he looks like. That shows how little i've met him throughout the period he's working at EGS.
So is it really a love story? Or just some crush that will fade away?
I need answers. I need to know some things. I need closure. I need it.
If i don't get this, i don't think i will ever be able to get my mind straighten out.
The sad story about a girl who is trying to grow up in harsh cruel world.
The story of a girl...4:04 AM
24th Dec 2011
~~Growing up~~
its christmas eve in Singapore
nothing special or anything interesting going on
just a lot of worries and so much i need to figure out about my life
life has been getting harder and harder
i can't seem to figure out some of the things that i need to figure out
is there a machine that is able to provide answers to complicated complex questions
that i have
Why am i behaving this way?
Why i have these feelings suddenly ?
Why am i thinking about him so much? when i barely know the person.
He is a guy at work
I am currently working at Jurong Island, Shell Petrochemical Industry
It is a nice place to be
The staffs are nice and care for me a lot
I am forever grateful and thankful for all the concerns they have for me
I have no complain whatsoever
He was just employed by the company
He.. is a nice guy? *sigh*
I am not so sure myself
Like i said, i barely know him
My first impression of him was not so good
Didn't like him because he seems unfriendly
but..
When i saw him for the 3rd time..
And when he called my name "Sya"
My heart beat so fast i scare myself
I was thinking ' why am i like this?'
What are these feelings?
I haven't feel this way in so long, ever since i gave up on e8726
Thoughts like ' do i like him? does he think im not nice? is he okay? why does he look a me this way? why am i thinking about him all the time? Do i really like this person?'
It has been 8 days since i've come to like this stranger?
So it is really true genuine feelings of liking a person?
I know it is normal for a girl, my age, to like some guy, somehow
I am already 20 years old
My friends are attached, engaged, soon to be married
And yet here I am, still googoo gaga over Korean idols
For almost 7 years already, which is not so good
Religious wise, Psychological wise, Emotional wise
I have never been attached my whole life
I would like to know how it feels like liking someone
Someone who cares for me
Someone who would sms me and ask me how my day is
Someone who would smile when he sees me walking
Someone who has my back
Just someone
So do i like this guy? Or do i like a presence of a guy?
Which he seems to fit in.
So do i like him because he fits in this empty space in my life
Do i just want someone to occupy it and it does not mean i truly like him
SO what is the final conclusion..
DO i like this guy? Or do i want someone to occupy this empty space in my heart?
Which one is correct?
I can't stop thinking about him
Everyday at work I'll be wondering where he is or what is he doing
Is he alright after 2 days MC?
Is it genuine worry or am i thinking too much?
Dear Mr.u-know-who
U definitely won't be reading this,
but if u do, can u tell me if you might like me?
can u please tell me if i like u?
Can u solve this problem for me?
An amateur needs your help, desperately i think i really like you. But seems like you do not like me at all. Seems like you do not make any effort to see me.
Am i really not your type?
Can u please come to me and smile for once?
Make this heart of mine come to an ease after 8 days.
Because i think...
i really do like you now.
Love,
Sya...
Labels: growing up, sya
The story of a girl...1:23 AM
6th June 2011- Looking at ALL t-max vids
and i saw one which jun looked at me. but the video's quality not so good.
I didnt even realised chanyang oppa also waved at me with jun oppa!
hahahhahaha/ die
i was staring too much at Jun oppa i remained oblivious to everything else..
seriously i have lost it ><
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkPst9L3Ezs
cr; as tagged
The story of a girl...2:17 AM
Heal the World Concert at Max Pavilion
I did not plan to go.. well $ wise..
But i did go afterall...
hey i wanna support t-max and they were selling e tixs at an affordable price :P
Although prices in Korea are much cheaper..
T-max performed 2nd..
So after orange caramel performed and did their introductions..
IT's T-Max YOOOO! i was EXTREMELY HAPPY! hello Jun oppa! lol ><
T-max performed 4 songs... i was too excited i can't remember what song it was..
oh there's Paradise! XD throughtout the whole performance i held onto my banner trying to get their attention.
At first they didn't see maybe coz it was quite dark, but after a while, chanyang oppa saw and keep pointing and singing towards me! KYA~~~~i like!
soon after that minchul oppa also saw.. he was like pointing to both banner one on the left and the right which is me.. i was soo HAPPY that he pointed twice! and was singing to my area!
HAHHAHA
After the introductions etc.. minchul said he wants the audience to decide which member gets which area. area 1 is mine.. so i screamed like hell for jun.. so was other people! HAHAHAH hey i love him okay. so he was assigned to area 1. XD poor chanyang oppa didnt get much screaming.. i really feel bad about it! >< Oppa 미안!
Minchul oppa tried to cover the awkwardness >< but failed. ><
He assigned himself to area 4.. Soon.. they started singing paradise XD i was like trying to get Jun oppa attention but he didnt see my sign..
Well i noe he did but he act oblivious to it T_T aish..
But hey other members noticed it so i dun mind XD lol..
T-max ended their performance and i was like.. okay now..sit down..cool down.. LOL
one point of the time, I WAS THE ONLY ONE STANDING ON THE CHAIR.. paiseh? yea but im happy i did it. if they didnt see me they must be really blind..
Skip all other bands~~
T-ara has the most fans.. when they perform everyone started running to the front and taking out their cameras etc.. i was like o.O i didn't noe t-ara was so famous here.. LOL sorry but i only focus on the people that i like.. :)
Before they end the concert.. all singers went on stage and sang Heal the World song~ lol
i saw t-max i saw like WOHOOOO and yet still at my seat..
But then i was not contented.. it was so far..so i went to the front alone with my camera and banner hoping to find a space so they can see me. I just need Jun to see me please.. just once will do.
So in order manner, Jun oppa was standing at the most right.. a place where i can see him clearly, thankfully! and thankfully T-max was standing at the right side of the stage! :)
so i ran there, found a good spot.. and raise the banner.. immediately Jun Oppa saw! I WAS LIKE YAY!! Omg he saw! i was the only t-max fan in the area so i guess he was soo happy! ^^ me too!!
For like the rest of the time we were looking at each other and waving profusely.. non stop!!
He was like smiling waving smiling laughing..
His expression was like...
"Okay now..i already saw ur banner u can put down ur arm. must be aching right? " -LOL
But.. i was okay so i just keep holding the banner and smiled at him..
Hey for a whole minute we look into each other eyes.. isnt tat romantic?! *slaps*
From his expression i can sense feel know that he feel sooo thankful and happy i was a fan of t-max! i hope to see u again soon oppa.. i really like u a lot.. maybe one day at KBS Sukira, again?
I hope soo.. Love you so much :)
Labels: heal the world concert, t-max
The story of a girl...8:48 AM
3rd June 2010
I went out with Ayuni..
We went to the airport.. in hoping I can see who else...T-MAX :D
Ayuni's first crazy korean stalking thing.. lol
she was extremely excited! (she said she wanna do it again!)
T-max and T-ara reached changi airport T2 at about 1.55pm (singapore time)
and they went out around 2.34pm..
T-max when out first.. the moment they walked out, the first person i saw was JUN!
like OMG it's HIM! yay..
They were walking kinda fast :( so had to be fast
Ayuni was the one holding the camera while i hold on to the banner.. (below)
Jun didnt see it.. so i screamed OPPA! --> turned---> look---> wave---> smile---> laugh!
HAHAHHAHA soo cute..
at the same time..
Hanbi oppa saw my banner! he was like pointing to e banner---> laugh---> smile XD
cudnt get any better than this.. LOL
i am very excited and glad that they saw this and know that they have a lot of fans
who supports them and just love them
All the best to t-max and their future activities!
Oh and this is e video.. XD
The story of a girl...8:31 AM
yes i do get jealous. i have nothing to hide. I feel inferior in front of them and trust me, my jealousy is beyond what you can imagine.
what's life.
The story of a girl...1:47 AM
Its may
i just wanna know what God has plans for me.
I felt as if my heart was extracted out of my body.
i cant explain.
i just need a hug.
The story of a girl...7:34 AM
Uni
Please oh Please, let me be in the batch for NTU
I really will work hard and i promise to never give up and give excuses ><
The story of a girl...4:31 PM
The Thursdays
I was scared out of my wits when it was raining the other with lighting and thunderstorm. >< It gets worst. I got anxiety attack. I cant seem to calm myself down despite forcing myself to think of happy events. I was so scared of the lightning and thunder that i just wanna run home. I cant think of anything but hiding in my bed. Even when i reached a sheltered area, my anxiety did not subside. My mind was blank and all i wanted was my meds. I was sick that day, so with the lightning and thunder, It. just. got. worst. ><
When the car accident that happened 4 years ago, in 2007. (I'm talking about myself.)
It was raining heavily. I cannot remember anything prior, during and post of the accident.
All the stories i knew/ heard, are from my family members and police officers.
They said it was raining so heavily that day. So maybe because of that i have this horrible fear to lightnings and thunderstorms.
It was a tough time for me 4 years ago, and it is till now.
The injuries that one perceived from a car accident, will hurt even more years to come.
The way u think, ur memory, ur fears, ur physical emotional and psychological strength will be so mess up that sometimes u think u r insane. And sometimes you might even think of suicide.
I experienced all these and i truly know how it feels like.
It has been 4 years, yet everyone is judging me that i cant let go of the incident.
If you were in my shoe, would u? How?
If u went through the same ordeal i did, what would you do?
When will you stop judging the way i think and feels?
Is it if u did went through the same thing i did, and u judge me, okay i wont wronged you.
But if u didnt, and u r judging me, take a look in the mirror. For i despise your attitude.
The story of a girl...5:25 AM
Kyuhyun. I want to meet you someday
I have always wanted to meet Kyuhyun.I just want to see him, meet him, talk with him, just understand him.
He is such a mysterious boy that how he got through the
incident would be such an inspirational story.
I would like to be the first person to hear him.
I really would like that.
I want to listen to him..
The stories he would share..
The pain he went through..
The love and care he received..
I want to get to know him better..
I just want another person to share stories the same pain i had years back and tell me im not alone in this world and that I have him.
And that its going to be fine soon, things will get better than before.
Give me words of inspiration and give me a hug to tell me i have been soo strong for years.
That I have been too strong on my own and that i deserves to have someone to lean to and listen to MY stories and not to judge how i feel or even my perspectives of life since it.
I just need to meet that person.
And that person is Jo Kyuhyun.
Labels: car accident, Kyuhyun, super junior
The story of a girl...9:10 AM
22032007 Accident
When it was on that date, i couldn't bring myself to laugh or cry or even smile.
It was such a hard time for me that i have absolutely no idea what to do.
It was so difficult for me to accept the truth, even till now.
You can never understand how i felt.
It's not something that u have to endure for that period of time.
It gets worst as years flew away.
I went through many hardships to be able to stand on my feet again, today.
it is not an easy task, it has never been easy at all.
It's very rude when people judge me because the pain I felt restricted me from performing my job well.
IT IS RUDE.
You cant judge me.
Just because it happened 4 years ago, it does not mean that i am 100% recovered.
Do you know how i felt when i hear the doctors said to me that i can NEVER be 100% cured/recovered. I HAVE and WILL have to withstand the pain occasionally from time to time.
If you noe me well, you would noe how horrible my gastric pains were/are.
I was rushed to A&E so many times that i know the whole drill.
Do you even have any idea how i felt!
My daddy had to stay with me in the hospital till morning and get to work.
He works from morning till midnight and he did not get any sleep.
I felt so bad that i hate myself being sick all the time.
Labels: car accident, school girl
The story of a girl...10:58 PM
3rd March 2011
i have been blog hopping actually.
i think i have more than 4 blogs!
lol!! when i was in korea, i did set up quite number of blogs!
soo its Thursday today! yesterday was the last paper, EVER
So me and the girls went out and eat at Seoul Garden
IT WAS FUN~~~~~~~~~~~~
Met some boys from the cohort
I think i eat more than them!
Apparently, girls CAN eat a lot.. PROVEN by me..
In a few month's time, we will be graduating!
Hopefully i pass my MNT (Materials Nancotech) T.T
Hopefully i pass my MNT (Materials Nancotech) T.T
That module is such a PAIN throughout the semester
I just don't get it.
I can do very well for modules with TONS of calculations
(maybe coz i LOVE maths)
But when it comes to logic, im A NOOB. T.T
haizzzzzzzzzzzzz
I just hope MNT wont make my GPA dropped.. or something.. please
I really wanna go in Uni..
Soooooo.... need to find a job..
i hope i can find one soon..
and yes.. must lose weight and get fit
Oh gosh, i haven't run in really quite awhile!!
The last time i went gym was last year.. T.T
The last time i went gym was last year.. T.T
Now my laptop is spoilt
I cant watch my drama
I cant listen to music
I HATE THIS!!!
i wanna watch soo many SJM vids!!
hhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhhuhuhuuhuh
i wanna watch soo many SJM vids!!
hhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhhuhuhuuhuh
I shall stop my rants and continue on tomorrow..
Bye..
The story of a girl...6:15 AM
28th May 2010
Right now, i'm watching 2days & 1night.. omg hilarious..
The way the make fun of each other reminds me when i was at CPTC
All of the boys making jokes 2am in the morning.. GOSH..
Out in the field watching each other almost falling asleep while standing!
Despite the cold night, we all managed to comeback in one piece
And enjoy our McDonalds and soggy Fries!
I missed and enjoyed that time very much! hehehehehe
So.. its one more week till i fly off..
Wow time do flew by very very fast..
What is making me worried now is u, my girl..
Don't get soo stress about 그여자.. 정말
언니, 당신이 이렇게 예쁘고 친절
You will only get more stress..
You must concentrate on your studies..
Mid-term is coming right..
So must CHIONG k!
Whatever that has happened
It is all in the past...
We look forward to our future together
Let's not think about anything that might hinder our dreams
We planned to go overseas Uni together remember?
Let's work hard and make our dreams a reality!
I love you my sister.. so i don't want you to think about 그여자..
It's really not worth it..
Remember..
또 택하면 돼 내 삶의 컨셉 짜릿한 세상 속에
난 잘하니까 잘난 나니까 이것봐 거울을 봐
빛을 발하기만 해 언제나 해맑게
보이지 않는 눈물은 있겠지만
따라주기만 해줘 이 작은 세상 안에서
작고 여린 내 가슴안에 환한 세계를 감싸안아
달려보자 내일을 향한 두려움 따윈 없
고독한 태양 아래 밝게 비춰줄 나
I am always here..
100% TRUST AND SUPPORT YOU!
REMEMBER AND THINK OF ME...
FORGET ABOUT 그여자...
The story of a girl...8:26 AM
16th October 2009
Hello....
with request from Hasanah..
i updated this dusty old smelly blog :D
okie... whats been happening?
well, for the last 2 weeks..
was suppose to be holidays..
but i 'spent' my time in sch doing work for a project
the only motivation mas and i had was,
WE ARE GOING TO THIS FOR..MONEY!!
yeap that's it! we are doing this for money and nothing else..
geezzz i cant believe i burned my precious holidays..
soo timetable? SUCKS! i hate it! no day off! wat is that?! eich..
gona take a whole lot of LOAs from sch this sem..
i just hope i wont die..
oh yes, one more thing..WEDNESDAY!
from 9AM - 3PM LAB WORK! NO BREAKS!
i'd think i will DIE! cannot eat?!
u've got to be kidding me?!
i can see the future..
~aisyah get gastric coz didnt eat food~
go hospital
meet doctor
doc ask" are u pregnant"
i shouted " NO!"
get a shot
go home
tomorrow MC
seeeeeeeeee...i predicted the future!
MUAHAHHAHAHAHAH! can make some money? ROFL!
P.S AISYAH WOULD LIKE TO WISH HER 'HUSBAND' A HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY! HOPE U CELEBRATED UR BIRTHDAY WITH MEMBERS AND UR LOVED ONES. :D
The story of a girl...11:45 AM
1st September 2008
came back from camp..it was just too fun..i had a blast!
3 weeks camo became 3 day camp..becoz of H1N1..
some people say its a blessing in disguise
but i really wud like to experince 3 weeks in temasek green
it wud be fun with everyone going crazy and facebook together
hahahhaahhahha
i just love the time i spent with them
was sucha good time..
i hope i can see u all very soon
a wise person once said..
i hate meetings..bocause then there will be parting..something i dont want to experience
because i was attached to something i want it to stay..no partings..i guess its life
P.S: i wish all the best to DBSK. No disbanding please. May things work out.Partings/Disbanding is just too hard. i like to see 5 boys.not just SOLO.
The story of a girl...8:29 AM
30th April 2009
long day..every one in class super tired..
usual fooling around..?
haha not at the last 3 hours..
everyone just too tired to do anything...
----------------------------------------------------
During UO1 lecture,
Mr.U Tin Lin told something..blah blah blah...
then one time i wanted to make a joke from wat he said,
the joke was in my head...soo...
U tin lin: blah blah blah
sya: ah...haha ( joke inside my head and look at mas)
(mas and ayu look super tired)
sya: mas, i actually wanted to make a joke
but i was just too tired to talk...hahaha
mas: haha..now thats actually funny...
---------------------------------------------------
so in the end i made a joke..ahahha..lame rite..
this happened to people who sits
and listens to mr.U lecture..hahahah
i went to lala land just 30 minutes after the lecture starts
and i have 2 hours to go...
felt like dying WITH UO1
now, how am i going to survive the next few months....
hai the problems girls face these days....
i feel/sound like a "haimoni" a.k.a old granny
P.S I REALLY MISS EVILBEAR & HONEY..GOSH..ITS ONLY BEEN 2 WEEKS...AND I MISS LIKE CRAZY...HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE..MISS IT TOO MUCH...
The story of a girl...7:02 AM
18th April 2009
soo dont wanna go back to sch
just hate the thot that i have to go to sch..
y???
dont ask me...
you wont get the answer from me...
argh..this girl gone psycho..
i just wanna avoid everything anything everyone..
ah...this girl
her heart is broken...
her confidence & hope gone...
she changed alot this past 2 months..
even though i have to force myself to sch...
i'll still go with a heavy heart..
COMEBACK.............................................
a different girl...
a complicated girl...
no one understands me..
i'm weird unique special..
from mars....
The story of a girl...8:34 AM
6th April 2009
it was fun...miss u guys soo much
CHALET was the best even though not all can attend
i still had a blast...
fathin's joke..each of us bonding...talking till 5 am..
just being with each other was the best thing...
NO ONE CAN EVER REPLACE U GIRLS..
SEC 4 PINK 2007 ROCKS...
NO MATTER HOW OLD WE ARE, THE FRIENDS WE MADE OUTSIDE,
THE BOND & 10 YEARS++ OF FRIENDSHIP WE SHARE CAN NEVER BE REPLACED..
THANK YOU... :)
The story of a girl...10:03 PM
22nd March 2009
its been exactly 2 years..
my heart still aching over what happened..
i can't let go of the past..
the past keep haunting me..
vivid images of the place..
lost of memory of what happened..
the emotional physical psychological pain i put up with..
cant be imagine by anyone else..
support was great but the pain won't go away..
The story of a girl...12:15 AM
17th March 2009
SOO MANY THINGS HAPPENED AND REALISED
it is time for a change..
it is time for an upgrade..
it is time to grow up..
it is time to be myself and not another person to please others...
this is going to be the REAL ME..
and i am serious...
The story of a girl...8:02 AM
OFFICIAL RELEASE SORRY, SORRY
It's Me It's Me It's Me Firstly
You You You Mesmerize Me
Mesmerize Mesmerize Mesmerize Baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes Sparkling Sparkling Sparkling
Breath Suffocation Suffocation Suffocation
I'm Going Crazy Crazy Baby
Look in my eyes
In my eyes as if Dazed by something
Now I can't Leave Your Shadow
comes walking The Look of Your Face,
As if you are Coming by stepping on my heart
Now I can't Leave No matter where we go
Your smile's attractive
As the so called nice lady
Ideas are usuallyClear and Nonstop.
You're really an Illusion
Now I can't leave I sink into you
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
It's Me It's Me It's Me Firstly
You You You Mesmerize Me
Mesmerize Mesmerize Mesmerize Baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes Sparkling Sparkling Sparkling
Breath Suffocation Suffocation Suffocation
I'm Going Crazy Crazy Baby
DANDAN DANDADA DA DARANDAN
DANDAN DANDADA DA
I'm starting to love you baby
DANDAN DANDADA DA DARANDAN
DANDAN DANDADA DA DARABABARA
Hey girl gir gir gir gir gir girl
Once I open my eyes,
I think of you Hey girl
Won't forget you anywhere
Tell me The Me in your heart
Tell me If I have a place (in your heart)
Tell me, Let me hear
I am Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid
People around me all say
You work too hard In this world,
a person like that isn't just her
They don't understand.
Don't understand her
Not speaking from their heart
If they're jealous of me, then it's their failure (fault)
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
It's Me It's Me It's Me Firstly
You You You Mesmerize Me
Mesmerize Mesmerize Mesmerize Baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes Sparkling Sparkling Sparkling
Breath Suffocation Suffocation Suffocation
I'm Going Crazy Crazy Baby
DANDAN DANDADA DA DARANDAN
DANDAN DANDADA DA
I'm starting to love you baby
DANDAN DANDADA DA DARANDAN
DANDAN DANDADA DA DARABABARA
Let's dance dance dance dance
Let's dance dance dance dance
Let's dance dance dance dance dance dance
HEY Are you willing to come to my side
Really I'm going crazy yeah I want to love you
Absolutely won't cheat hey
Compared to Lovers, More like Friends
I want to be that kind of person
All your problems and sadness Collected together
Very, Very Unique
I love you very much
I hope you're that that that girl
It's Me It's Me It's Me Firstly
You You You Mesmerize Me
Mesmerize Mesmerize Mesmerize
BabyShawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes Sparkling Sparkling Sparkling
Breath Suffocation Suffocation Suffocation
I'm Going Crazy Crazy Baby!
The story of a girl...6:11 AM
9th March 2009
it has been soo long since i last posted...
miane..
so my bro just came back from korea
hahaha!!!!!!!!
im still sad i cant go.. :(
he brought back 5 dozens of...
KRISPY CREAM DONUTS!
GOSH ALOTT RITE!
but its worthit because krispy cream is super NICE!
i have never tasted donuts that nice!! hehe
so we went back to school Maarif for Maulid Nabi S.A.W
it was soo nice meeting my ex-classmates
missed them soo soo much!
seeing the teachers was also nice!hehehehe
i miss maarif a whole lot
even though we had bad times at the sch
but each of us miss tat school and our classmates more than ever!!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..............
NEWS! SUPER JUNIOR HAS RELEASED THEIR MP3 VERSION OF 3RD ALBUM!
AND ITS SOOO SOOO NICE!
I PROMISE U!!!!!!!!!!
JUST LISTEN IS THE E.L.F'S MOTTO AND NOTE TO EVRYONE!!
the song is like a clubbing song
and soo nice to dance to
im sure even non-korean or SJ fan will love this song
very much believe it soo...
JUST LISTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
It's Me It's Me It's Me Firstly
You You You
Mesmerize Me
Mesmerize Mesmerize Mesmerize Baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes Sparkling Sparkling Sparkling
Breath Suffocation Suffocation Suffocation
I'm Going Crazy Crazy Baby!!
The story of a girl...5:49 AM
25th Febuary 2009`
OR I'LL DIE IF THE WRONG PEOPLE READ THIS POST!!!!!
wow it has been soo long since i last posted..
too many things to tell...
ok one by one...
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOW feel soo great to have finished all the papers
after maths paper, Mas Ayu and I went to eat at CS food culture..
details...hmmm..before we went there we went to the library
blah..blah..blah...then JH called me!!!
hahahahahha Ayu was soooo jealous wen i show her who called me!
im soo sooorry Ayu!!
he asked about maths and all..etc
we ate food laughed gossiped alot!!
i talk about my Honey..etc..HAHAHA.
then we went home..
i hope to c u girls soon..
year 2!! pressure!yeah!HAHAHAHAHA
SOOO yesterday i studied maths together with
the chinese boys....was really fun..
JH was funny..KL was as always asking questions
hmmm...my Honey..
let me start..
why u look sooo mad honey?
exams? yeah i tink soo too but dont looked soo fierce
the tension of the first 30-60 minutes was like...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
everyone saw both of us being so mad and pissed
i'm sorry if i did anything wrong..
i want that person who was like Happy-Go-Lucky...
calling me Honey..smilling....
yesterday was really...i cant even describe it.......
so i was like really distracted during TD paper also
hmmm...i shud just forget about this..
Lastly............
i can watch my ever soo adictive kdrama and jdrama
gosh i missed it sooo much!
sooo soooooooooo soooo much
like for soo long havent watched...
i really need my "medicine"
hahhahahhaha thats is wat everyone called it
its my medicine to everything..
soo yeah thats my life.....
Inside my heart,
memories of you have changed
I think I’m going to go crazy,
what do I do now
I’ve given all of my sincerity
I loved you
The story of a girl...4:12 AM
11 Febuary 2009
finally i finished my CSAS Leadership PBL!!
it like WOW!
to actually finish all of these i got headaches
and tiredness..blah blah blah
soo exam is soo near..
cant wait for holiday!
the BAD thing about holiday is that my bro
is going to Korea to snowboard with his frens
and he aint bringing me along!!!!
soo not fair!
i am begging my mom then my dad...
i really wanna go!!!!!!!!!
hehehhehehheheh..happy...
so...i have the medical check-up
rescheduled to 23rd April
of all the dates they chose thius date!
oh come on i just start sch then u want me to skip it?
ayyyoooooooo.....
but good news Kimberlyn and Xiang Ning from DBJR
is entering TP!!!!!!!
i have DBJR members with me!! :)
honey..honey...honey...honey :)
The story of a girl...11:51 PM
30th January 2009
or is it just bad luck......
so my baby lappy is sick..
my baby is sick!!!
mr.msn wont log in
the internet super super lagging
then got virus i tink....
i want to cry for forgetting to update my baby..
or is it just bad luck that i laways have encounter?
not only is my baby is sick
im sick also
i haveto miss my lecture quiz becoz of therapy
becoz of it people might suspect something
the last thing i want wud be my classmates to find out im sick
i hate that
im scared of that
i dont want them to noe anything
it maybe nothing to u but its big to me
i hate people knowing about it
it just hurts sometimes wen
i have to say " i have to go to the hospital"
or " i cant come today, i have a therapy"
or even worse " sorry i can u i have to meet my lawyer"
people say to just leave it behind
its in the past
forget it
but i cant ok!
it just hurts too much
until now it still hurts just thinking about it
i cant imagine how strong kyuhyun is
how he actually be stronger than anyone
i look up to him :)
how i wish THAT THING NEVER HAPPENED
For being my strength
When I was weary
And for always being by my side
I finally say this now
Thank you
And because of you I’m happy
The story of a girl...6:01 AM
29th January 2009
i cant login for days..
frustrating irritating annoying
u hate me is it?!
ayyyayayyayayayyaya
me and hasanah both cant login!
becoz of the new live messanger?
i thot the new the better.
i guess not!!argh!!
so to let go of my anger..
i watched something with super junior
just seeing them cam make u better..they have the invisible powers to make me smile.. :)
If I could turn it all back No,
if you would smile for me just once more
By myself, I’m unable to hold your heart
Because of foolish pride, I’m sorry my love
When I look at how cold you’ve become
The separation spreading in this instance
Now I know there’s nothing to be done
In the name of love
The story of a girl...6:56 AM
24th January 2009
why is it i have to please people?
why is it i'm so different?
i thought about my personality.
i realised how many stupid times i hurt myself because of others.
i think i have a split personality.
in school im,
-loud
-talkative
-not so shy
-happy-go-lucky
outside:
-quiet
-likes to act cute
-shy
-don't talk much
-smiley
-very sensitive
i guess i really hav split personality.
i dunno why i automatically switch to being someone else in school.
not very different but somehow different.
hmmm...i dont understanad myself anymore.
i just want to crawl into a hole.
i just want to be alone.
My love for you is so strong, i lost myself in the process...
The story of a girl...10:56 PM
21st January 2009
hmmm..been really busy lately...
projects that nearky killed me
CSAS-LEDERSHIP-PBL
argh..i feel like giving up..
not that i cant handle it right at all..
secondary school was worse..
but i am facing a whole lot of problems rite now..
cant seem to tink straight
everytime i'll be thinking why is it i also have to face peoblems
havent i suffer enough!
i've been thru alot for the last 2 years!
it still not enuf that i suffer for the whole 2 years!ALONE!!
oh come on!
illness after illness
skip lecture after lecture
go for appointment for this and that
getting tired all the time
my body cant take the pain
my brain cant think staraight
have to keep all of this to myself!
cant take this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!
The story of a girl...5:12 AM
12th Janury 2009
i feel like dying
too many works to be done..
projects keeps coming
havent finish one comes anotyher one..
hai
so today was really boring and a tiring day for me
i slept during TD lecture break..
power nap!
but i still cant concentrate during TD coz too sleepy
haiz....
i just wish holidays wud come really soon
then i just want to sleeo all day long!
hai im dead beat..
i;ve never been like this b4
so ya my sister gave birth to a..
healthy baby boy
his name is Irfan Naeim
he is very cute like me!
seriously! he's cute....
later i'll post his pictures..
so do anticipate! tats all nyte2 :b
too many works to be done..
projects keeps coming
havent finish one comes anotyher one..
hai
so today was really boring and a tiring day for me
i slept during TD lecture break..
power nap!
but i still cant concentrate during TD coz too sleepy
haiz....
i just wish holidays wud come really soon
then i just want to sleeo all day long!
hai im dead beat..
i;ve never been like this b4
so ya my sister gave birth to a..
healthy baby boy
his name is Irfan Naeim
he is very cute like me!
seriously! he's cute....
later i'll post his pictures..
so do anticipate! tats all nyte2 :b
The story of a girl...5:33 AM
5th January 2009
well sch been really hectic that i feel llike giving up!
i mean it! seriously its been really hard!
argh!!i need motivation..but too bad i cant motivate myself..
ah..i really wud love it if someone
who wud listen to all my woes..sorrows..everything
so i heard tat is changing his course..
like DUh im upset..
but if he wants to change it and it affects his future
so definately i wud support and be happy for him..
thats all i can say
tired.. aneyonghasseyo!
The story of a girl...7:06 AM
4th January 2009
so tomorrow schooling..argh
so dreadful! i dont want..
but on the bright side!
well I got NEWS...
so i read an article...
by which regarding SJ of course
so there this girl who went for the year-end concert
in Hongkong..she asked hangeng wen he coming to singapore.
then he said they are planning to come here somewhere this
or the next month but everything is not confirm
they are still planning...
well just the thot of them planning to come here
is realy soomething!!!
it made me Super Duper HAPPY!
i really hope they will come to singapore...
ah...i'll be the happiest girl in the world!
so the weather is really odd these days,
its been really cold and hot simultaneously..
so do take care and keep yourself fit and healthy
keep yourself warm, drink lots of water and exercise.
i see you all very soon..saranghae yoo..kamsahamnida!
The story of a girl...4:39 AM